So that past little while I’ve been doubting a lot of things and not knowing what God is doing with my life. I feel pressured to go. Pressured to make it look like my life is perfect. Pressured to hide how I really truly feel. I have written so many blogs about how I’m really feeling but don’t dare to post them, because I’m going on missions, I’m supposed to have my life figured out. Some days, I feel like I’m in this alone.
Then today I read my devotion and this is what it says.
I Am With You On This Road
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths” (Proverbs 3:5-6).
My daughter, you are no mistake. I made you with intention, I made you with your face in my mind, your voice in my ears. I made you with a name and with grace and with gifts only yours—your gifts my very gift to you.
You are not made with a pressure to perform, with an expectation to achieve. You are not made with a heaviness to bear around your neck, a weight to carry, a weariness of long days one after another.
I know the way with Me can feel hard. I know this road feels long. I am with you on the road, my dear. I am with you on this road.
Take steps now, where you can no longer see. Reach your hand out now, for I long to grab yours and hold tight. Lift those shoulders now; let me take that burden you carry.
Can you see me taking it? Can you see my hands upon your shoulders, the weight being lifted off? Can you feel shackles being cut? Can you feel the things you can’t, with your eyes, see?
I am for you, my child. And I do not ask you to go places where I will not be. Only go where I am. Even though you can’t see the next steps, I do. And I go ahead, and I know when the path is clear.
Just follow Me, my daughter. I know this road, this one marked out for you. You have choices about where to go, whether to turn right or to turn left. But ask Me where I am. And trust I give you recognition for the One who made you, for the One who designed your heart, for the One who knows His daughter and the details of the road, for her, ahead.
God is with me. He will never leave or forsake me. ❤
He is for me, not just 50%, or 75% not even only 99%, but He is for me 100%.