“In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ” (1 Peter 1:6-7)

“The night is far gone; the day is at hand. So then let us cast off the works of darkness and put on the armor of light” (Romans 13:12)

Lately, I feel like I just can’t go on. I can’t handle all of the confusion and chaos. I feel like this is the end, like I can’t go on. But You, O God, are beginning something in me. You begin in me again.

My weariness is only temporary. My sadness is fleeting. Even though it may feel like it may never end, never go away, You are here Lord.

You are here Father. You grasp hold of my sorrow, and with a single hand, You brush it away, bit by bit. I wish You you would wash it all away with a quick brush, a dashing movement, You could do that,  but I see how this is better for me Lord. I will wait on you Lord. You will come for me. Hope feels to far away to imagine some days, but I will throw out my doubt, I will throw it to the depths of hell, where my sin was cast with the last breath of Jesus’ words. I cannot see the light at the end of this tunnel, the storm seems to be to much, I may feel like I’m drowning.  I will hold on to Your promises Lord. I will look to You, and follow You, my Lord. I choose You.

Thank you Lord for not giving up on me, for loving me even though I am not worthy. You will not stop loving me. You will not stop pursuing me. You will not stop looking for me. I may feel hopeless and far away from you Lord, but you are here. You come and hold me. You lift my face to the light. The light that came for me and rescued me. The light shines through all the darkness.

I can see you moving Lord. One step at a time. You are with me, leading me, guiding me, one step at a time, away from this place I need rescue. You show me that You have already come, and you come again. You will not stop coming for me. I am not alone, even when I feel like I have no one, I have you Lord. It’s never to late. I can not chase You away… no matter what I do, you are with me ❤

YOU make me beloved. YOU make me holy.  I am lovely… clean, because YOU made me that way. I am brand new… adored. Shame cannot find me. My name is written on Your hand. I may feel like I’m in the darkness… but You are here with me Lord.. You are light. There cannot be darkness around light. You are with me, I am with You.. so, I am not in the darkness, because of you Lord Jesus.

Light all around. Light all around.

As I was writing this, this song comes on.. I had to add some of the lyrics.

He is with us in this season, when silence fills the home, lights that we once loved, leaves you aching and alone. He is with us in the distance, between two shattered hearts, standing in the same room, but half the world apart.

He is with us. Always. In our joy, and in our pain. In the lonely mid-night, keep looking on. Love has come. God with us.

He is with us when the evening falls, and all the laughter fades, when the emptiness comes creeping back, and just steals your joy away.

He is with us. Always. In our joy, and in our pain. God with us.

Come on, hold on now. Wont you just stay strong. No matter how it feels, He is with us. In what you’re facing now, know you’re not alone. 

He is with us. Always. In our joy and in our pain. God with us.