so, i follow this girl on instagram.
she started a live bible study on tuesday nights.
& i loved it!
the word or emotion of the week was joy.
the passage was psalm 33:1-22.
shout for joy in the LORD, O you righteous!
praise befits the upright.
give thanks to the LORD with the lyre;
make melody to him with the harp of ten strings!
sing to him a new song;
play skillfully on the strings, with loud shouts.
for the word of the LORD is upright,
and all his work is done in faithfulness.
HE loves righteousness and justice;
the earth is full of the steadfast love of the LORD.
by the word of the LORD the heavens were made,
and by the breath of HIS mouth all their host.
HE gathers the waters of the sea as a heap;
HE puts the deeps in storehouses.
let all the earth fear the LORD;
let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of HIM!
for HE spoke, and it came to be;
HE commanded, and it stood firm.
the LORD brings the counsel of the nations to nothing;
HE frustrates the plans of the peoples.
the counsel of the LORD stands forever,
the plans of HIS heart to all generations.
blessed is the nation whose GOD is the LORD,
the people whom he has chosen as HIS heritage!
the LORD looks down from heaven;
HE sees all the children of man;
from where HE sits enthroned HE looks out
on all the inhabitants of the earth,
HE who fashions the hearts of them all
and observes all their deeds.
the king is not saved by his great army;
a warrior is not delivered by his great strength.
the war horse is a false hope for salvation,
and by its great might it cannot rescue.
behold, the eye of the LORD is on those who fear HIM,
on those who hope in HIS steadfast love,
that HE may deliver their soul from death
and keep them alive in famine.
our soul waits for the LORD;
HE is our help and our shield.
for our heart is glad in HIM,
because we trust in HIS holy name.
let your steadfast love, O LORD, be upon us,
even as we hope in YOU.
i love this.
the definition of joy is very different,
based on what the world says,
and what GOD says.
but so often..
joy seems to come & go in my life.
i know it isn’t based on circumstances,
my joy gets stolen.
the flame gets blown out.
some days are good,
i can find joy in many things.
like my yesterday.
my yesterday was filled with so much joy.
then there are days like today.
the morning started off wonderful!
i went for breakfast with my sister.
i went home,
put on some happy songs,
i was feeling pretty good!
and then i went to my baby brothers provincial hockey game.
i love watching him play.
i am so proud of him.
before the game even started,
small things started stealing my joy.
i started feeling insecure.
i got bitter.
i no longer had an ounce of joy.
i did not like what was happening inside of me.
it was not something from the HOLY SPIRIT.
so i left arena.
i went and got a drink,
& some cotton candy from the local cafè.
and i could feel my joy slowly starting to spark again.
i found it in being ‘home’.
in my music.
in the coffee.
in my blanket.
in my leggings.
in the cotton candy.
in sitting in the presence of JESUS.
in my bible.
i opened my bible to the book of joel.
& i started reading.
some verses that really stuck out to me,
“yet even now,” declares the LORD,
“return to me with all your heart,
with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning;
and rend your hearts and not your garments.”
return to the LORD your GOD,
for HE is gracious and merciful,
slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love;
and HE relents over disaster.”
i understand that this is speaking of repentance.
it just spoke to me.
HE is gracious.
slow to anger.
“fear not, o land;
be glad and rejoice,
for the LORD has done great things!”
GOD has done great things!
He truly has.
so i will set my eyes on HIM.
not on others.
not my myself.
not on circumstances.
not on situations.
not in attempting to be perfect.
not in comparison.
not in anxieties.
but in HIM.
and only HIM.